Happy

I should be happy, I should be asleep,
But in the stillness of the night, I hear someone weep.
I know I am great, or so I am told,
I remember being funny, I think I was bold.
I have been treated badly, even with disdain;
But that’s not the reason I feel pain.
I still am funny, I still do laugh,
It’s an illusion, in it, there’s no heart;


It’s so late at night, I can see a new sun,
My head is too groggy to think of a pun.
Once my throat was dry from talking uncut,
Now my mouth stinks from remaining shut.
I was once in love with my sleep, why didn’t it last forever?
I know not why our relationship is severed, we are not together.
I guess it was a war between me and everyone,
I lost my smile, I guess I lost a ton.


It’s gone on too long, I am inured,
Everybody is happy, they say I am cured.
The greatest privilege is to love and care,
I have seen emptiness, I wish I could share.
I have more than many, my needs are met,
I have nothing, nothing I wanted to get.
My pillow is drenched, it’s not sweat,
I knew I heard someone weep, my eyes are wet.

Rebel

So, you think you're a rebel?
Are you really? Or do you want to be visible?
Is it because you think everyone hates you?
No they don't; They just don't patronize you.
Is it because you think everyone loves you?
No they don't; Otherwise you won't feel like you.
Is it because you think they want to be you?
No they don't; Nobody can be you.

So, you think you're a rebel?
Or are you scared of being one among the pebbles?
Is it because everyone is conspiring against you?
Or is it because you aren't getting the respect due?
You really must think you're important,
why else would you get so despondent?
What have you achieved with your own might?
Have you gone through fire to become a light?

So, you think you're a rebel?
Do you listen to punk rock or heavy metal?
Have you broken a few trivial rules?
Or have you stolen inexpensive jewels?
Rebels will never be criminals,
maybe a musician, poet or something abysmal.
They do no wrong except follow their heart.
You are a rebel if you make your own pie chart.